Cindy Dahl’s life challenge.

5/31/2012

After my suicide attempt I was ordered to see a therapist, her name is Cindy Dahl. We talk about my rocky life over the past couple of years that ended with me trying to commit suicide. She told me to make a list of all the major events that have happened to me and try to write about how they made me feel and how they played the part.

1.) A year ago on memorial day, I was raped by Donny Sorenson.

2.) I was molested as a child by my half brother Zachary.

3.) I had a year long fall out with my dad and step-mom.

4.) My coping with drugs and alcohol.

5.) My break-up with Michael Tucker.

6.) The amount of people I’ve slept with.

to be continued.

Unhappiness.

It sits in your gut like a rock at the bottom of the river. All the fish swimming above you without a car in the world. My life has gotten dark and twisted. I feel like I’m not myself. I’m a puppet in my own world with everyone around me controlling my strings. The negative energy thrown at me from my
family. The last thought in my head was it will be over, with the pill bottle empty in my suitcase upstairs. Then I drifted to sleep. The feeling when I woke up was unbearable with more problems than I had the day before. Attempted suicide. Stuck in the psych unit for a week. Now I’m watched like a hawk. I just want to feel whole again. I want to be me again.